the quickest way to get me to do something is to put it in front of something that I desperately don’t want to do. I can put a serious clean on my kitchen if I should be leaving for work. same goes for the gross downstairs bathroom that no one wants to clean – I’ll tackle that puppy if I’m staying in on a Sat. night in order to “get work done.” “Getting [actual] work-work done” is tantamount to punishment, as far as I’m concerned, on a weekend. But strangely, just like college, I look forward to the weekends because there will be time to get work done. Then it’s the weekend, and I don’t want to spend it working. But then it all piles up and you’ve gotta start somewhere.

Another thing about needing to get work done is that’s when I decide it’s a good time to start reading again. Because, you know, I need to read more and I really want to and it’s important so sure it can trump all those other things I promised myself I’d do. What my actual problem is – is that I negotiate too much. Entirely too much. I negotiate with myself bi-hourly and with other people rarely, but with myself practically by the moment. I’m thinking it lessens my ability to trust myself since I’m always undermining myself. That, or I should just commit to pragmatic-ism and fkking make more lists and adhere to them.

I do so much storing up for a better time – reading, projects, links to good examples of design, travel destinations, interesting gifts that I might want to surprise someone with someday, a crazy collection of National Geographic maps spanning at least 40 years, if not more. What am I planning to do with them? I don’t know but they could make a really cool project one day! All of these things though – I have so many *working files* uploaded to Google Docs & Spreadsheets, all there for resources to add to and take from and finish one day in my random goings-on and workings with hope that I will actually pull from them since I’ve collected the media and prepared and done the research and maybe that will bolster me for when it’s time to execute. I’m not lazy, but I’m often distracted. I’m not chagrinning work because I enjoy working and I especially enjoy getting things done. But I especially agonize over getting things done too, and all of that is an element of perspective and self-inflicted hardship and isn’t that a bitch? You just have to steel your mind to it, I know. Enough storing up for a better day.

Amazing.  –> Watch this with me again.

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he’s doing all of this, photographing and publishing, from his cell phone. 
*shaking head*  of course he is.